Been a minute

Looking back over the course of this blog, I have to admit it surprised me how long ago I made my last entry. Life got busy, I moved three times, changed jobs four times and frankly, depression sucked the joy of out of life and my interest in sex, or blogging about sex. Now, of course, life's taken a turn for all of us. Not sure if that justifies a return to blogging because of, or in spite of, current events but here we are.

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