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Worshipping (Part 3)

Something remarkable happens to me, when i let down my guard.  It doesn’t happen often, but when it does… There i knelt, naked but for the collar and short leash He had placed on me.   i’d been bathing His boot with my tongue.  i’d been so intent on my task that i hadn’t noticed Him lean over me.  Gently, His hand touched my head, stroking my hair. “Good boy.” i felt so many things when He said that.  Pleased, grateful, perhaps a bit proud. “Take off my boots.” i sat back, on my haunches, head bowed, focused on untying His left boot.  Once untied, i gently lifted His leg until i could pull the boot off.  Once it was in my hand, i risked looking up at Him.  He was watching me, knowing what it was i wanted.  A small smile played on His lips, and He nodded – ever so slightly.  i slowly drew His boot to my nose, inhaling once, twice.  my chest felt full of His scent.  Before i could get too distracted, i placed His boot off to the side, repeating the process with His right boot.

We all respond differently

We all respond differently to touch.  For me, touch has always been negotiated.  I know that may sound strange.  Touch has never been entirely safe – I won’t bore you with the reasons.  Suffice it to say, home never felt safe, and boundaries were never really respected.  Because I’ve always been a bit skittish about touch—whether touching , or being touched by, someone else—I’ve found it surprising that I’m drawn to massage.   Perhaps it’s because it is inherently a healthy, safe structure in which touch is healthy, respectful, helpful and therapeutic.  Sounds good, doesn’t it?  Ok, maybe it’s just because I know what the rules are and that gives me a false sense of safety. In any event, the recent addition of a couple of new sites dedicated to eroticizing massage has made for some interesting evenings.  Staunch supporter of porn, as I am, I find msyelf replaying the set up to scenes almost more often than the sexiness.  Something about touch, bare naked skin against skin, that I cov