New experiences
Sex involves a certain amount of vulnerability. In my life, I’ve been vulnerable—and clearly made poor choices with whom. The result is that it’s not easy for me to be open to sex, or to be open with people. One of the things I’ve chosen to do with my life is approach sex, and vulnerability, and try and gain back some of what I think I’ve lost. I rarely feel visible, in uncontrolled settings. Take that for what you will. In light of that, over the years, a couple of ways to deal: 1) self-medicate so that I feel less inhibited 2) pay for sex The former rarely has worked out well. Though it has afforded me a handful of interesting stories to share. I’ve shared them, though admittedly left out the ‘buyer’s remorse’ that typically hits the next day. Sure, there was the time in NYC during gay pride when I knelt before two men and took care of their dicks. Sure, there was the pair that I sucked off in a back alley in Chicago. Yes, there was the time, at Folsom, where I ma